1.Deuteronomy： Nigger Man
All I ever wanted was a nigger who would be true
All I wanted was a nigger man
All I ever wanted was a nigger who would be true, be good to me
While doin' the evil that niggers do
My view of self was that of a divine ho
Like the ones portrayed on the white man colonized minded rap
shows
Oh the afro dizzy act of my blak rebel
I am a woman and to this world I accommodate myself
My place is in my blak man's defiance my nigger divine for his
Sadness
So well complemented mine
When I look at you so blak and blue
My love for you sad but true
All I ever wanted was a nigger who would be true
All I wanted was a nigger man
One night on a love high we metamorphasized into gigantic blak
butterflies
And for the first time I saw the god inside
I realized my nigger redefined was the blak man divine and he
could take me higher
And the divine woman was what the blak man desired
But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, you shall not
eat;
for in the day that you eat of it you shall surely die
To them he said I will greatly multiply your pain and your
conception; in pain shall you bring forth children, and you
shall be
dependent on your husband and he shall rule over you
Then god said, let us make man in our image
Let's go back to the time when the mind and soul were divine
faith unquestioned
Mother father god said let us make man in our own image god
was not alone as no one should be I search for a righteous hand
to rule over me
For you are a holy people to the Lord your god; The Lord your
god
has chosen you to be a beloved people to himself, above all
people that are upon the face of the earth
The Lord shall bring a nation against you from afar, from the
ends
of the earth, as swift as the eagle that flies; a nation whose
language you do not understand
Your sons and daughters shall be given to another people and
your eyes shall look on, and you shall grieve over them all the
day
long and there shall be no might in your hand to do anything
The fruit of your labors shall a nation that you know not eat up
and
you shall be wronged and oppressed always
2.Leviticus： Faggot
Faggot better run learn to run 'cuz daddy's home
His sweet lil' boy just a little too sweet
Every night the man showed the faggot what a real man should be
The man and the faggot will never see
for so many can't even perceive a real man Tell me
Not that the faggot didn't find a woman fine and beautiful
He admired desired their desires
He wanted love from strong hands
The faggot wanted the love of a man
His mother would pray
Save him, save him, save him from this life
Go to church boy
Faggot you're just a prisoner of your own perverted world
No picket fence acting like a bitch that's all he sees ain't
that what faggot means
No love dreams
Only the favors sweet Michael performed for money to eat
'Cause the man kicked the faggot out the house at 16
Amen mother let it be
Before long he was crowned QUEEN for all the world to see bloody
body face down
The wages of sin are surely death that's what mama used to say
So there was no sympathy
Let he without sin walk amongst the hated and feared and know
true trial and tribulations
See my dear we're all dying for something searchin' and
searchin'
Soon mama found out that god would turn his back on her too
Save me save me from this life
I pray to my Lord above save me they say you're the way the
light
3.Mary Magdalene
I often watch you the way you whore yourself
You're so beautiful
You flirt and tease enviously I wish you'd flirt with me
Perhaps I'm enticed by what you are
I imagine us jumpin' the broom foolish I know that's not the
life you live
You live alone in a crowded bed never remembering faces
Conversations just a body for the lonely
Spend one night with me satisfy me for free and I'll love you
endlessly
I overheard you say you'd give them what they wanted
So give me what I want
Tell me I'm the only one
I want to marry you
Tell me I'm the only one
In a harlot's dress you wear the smile of a child with the faith
of
Mary Magdalene
Yet you wash the feet of unworthy men
Come and I'll set you free into an endless valley of fruits both
sweet and sour
And whatever displeases your palate my kisses will wash away
Stay. If you must dance, dance for me
Blessed are the pure at heart for they shall see god so close
your eyes and dream
For the world will blind you and I'll judge not so that I may
not be judged
Please give me what I want
Tell me I'm the only one
I want to marry you
Tell me I'm the only one
4.Ecclestiastes： Free My Heart
The sun rises and the sun goes down and hastens back to the
place Where it rose that from thence it may rise again
Finding all things wearisome unsatisfied my eyes not satisfied
with Seeing, my ears unsatisfied with hearing
Wondering of that which is now that which has been and that
which is to be
For my time on earth I pay dearly for the past
Confusion embraces my heart for to know self is to forgive self
my Sojourn of truth
Free my heart so my soul may fly
Free my mind of my worldly wants and desires
I look towards heaven with my arms open wide
Take my hand come and take my hand
Sadness fills my heart
Too weak to get by, slave to disConténtment self-pity
I come forth from my mother's womb naked shall I return to the
earth to go as I came
Taking nothing of this supposed worldly gain
Free my heart so my soul may fly
Free my mind of my worldly wants and desires
I look towards heaven with my arms open wide
Take my hand come and take my hand
Hook：
Free my heart
5.A Tear and a Smile
When we make love I feel it so deeply
When we make love I cry
When you kiss me my lips they burn with fear
For even a love that crowns may crucify
In the cradle of creation between the hand of love I died and
there you were
I was warmed amidst the gaze of your eyes, our minds wounded
by The need for understanding, our bodies betrayed by time
Do you hear me can you taste my pain for love has no other
desire but to fulfill itself
But to deny yourself the pleasure of that pain is to love
selfishly
I stood there
Your heart lay captive in a cage fashioned by your fears not
knowing what to say
You have many lovers and yet I alone love you far beyond any
lily white fairy tale
I would not exchange the sorrows of my heart for the joys of the
multitude
And I would not have the tears that sadness makes to flow from
my every part turn into laughter
I want the hunger for your love and beauty to fill me from the
depths of my spirit
6.Who is He and what is He to You
A man we passed just tried to stare me down
And when I looked at you you looked at the ground
I don't know who he is but I think that you do
Dag gummit
Who is he and what is he to you
Something in my heart and in your eyes
Tells me he's not someone just passin' by
And when you cleared your throat was that your cue
Dag gummit
Who is he and what is he to you
Now when I add the sum of you and me
I get confused and I keep coming up with three
You're too much for one but not enough for two
Dag gummit
Who is he and what is he to you
Now you think I'm one not much for intuition
Lord is that what you really think or are you wishin'
Before you wreck your old home be certain of the new
Dag gummit
Who is he and what is he to you
7.The Way
They say you're the way the light
The light is so blinding
Your followers condemn me your words used to enslave me
Jesus cured the blind man so that he could see the evils of the
world
Perchance blindness is but a dark thought overcome by the light
Maybe Judas was the better man and Mary made a virgin just to
save face
I too am so ashamed on bended knees
Prayin' to my pretty white Jesus
Brother John Paul convinced himself of his wisdom to judge to
forgive to condemn
Mother Mary full of grace I'm so confused by her pale white face
God so loved the world he gave his only son
But many mothers bear children martyrs of greed bitter love
While the so called chosen make war
So many suffer in the name of god their faith at a closed door
8.Bittersweet
You enchant me so my bittersweet flower
Mystery of the sages come into my realm of imagination let me
digest you
You enchant me so my bittersweet flower
Shall we make love feel the waves of the ocean come to rest in
the eye of a storm
I cry myself to sleep over you
You come then you go
The more I fall the more you let go
The sweet taste of you stains my lips
Even through the pain it's only you I miss
Unlike those before I wanna free you
Let the sweetness of your kiss rush over me
I search so many lifetimes
Let my soul rest in your arms
And I'll let you inside
9.God Shiva
God Shiva is imminent love and transcendent reality
God Shiva my supreme reality
I am here no longer a vision birthed into my body
I accept praise, blame, joy, sorrow
I realize we are in truth the truth we seek god
Perfect this very moment
God Shiva is imminent love and transcendent reality
God Shiva my supreme reality
Desire no more what you already possess
You are already free my nature is to love you
My soul identical to god
On a journey to return to my creator bliss
You are my mind of the mind
My eye of eye
Life of my life
10.Stay
I want you
I can't get you off my mind
Ooh you turn me on-stay
So sorry you think it's wrong being here alone with me
I wish I could understand you and what you feel
You must feel something or you wouldn't have let me get this far
So don't be afraid just give in
If you let me have you just this once I promise never to want
you anymore
'Cuz what's happening now feels so good
And the forbidden always arouses temptations
Come here let me have you
Just stay
Ooh baby come on let me
11.The Womb
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12.Bitter Sweet
You enchant me so my bittersweet flower
Mystery of the sages come into my realm of imagination let me
digest you
You enchant me so my bittersweet flower
Shall we make love feel the waves of the ocean come to rest in
the eye of a storm
I cry myself to sleep over you
You come then you go
The more i fall the more you let go
The sweet taste of you stains my lips
Even through the pain it's only you i miss
Unlike those before i wanna free you
Let the sweetness of your kiss rush over me
I search so many lifetimes
Let my soul rest in your arms
And i'll let you inside
13.Make Me Wanna Holler
My mother used to whore herself
And my father
Would reap the benefits of her labor
It was almost as if she was absent
Absent from her own life
I remember
She would scrub the floors for the white folks
Just to come home
To cook and to clean
For the man who broke her
And i love to watch her dance to the tunes on
The soul stations, yeah
Just to ease her mind
But my mother
She was vindictive in her own fashion
So she passed down to me her traits
Like that of her brown eyes and her dark hair
She passed down to me
Her sadness
Make me wanna holler
The sadness fills my heart
Make me wanna holler
Make me wanna holler
Make me wanna holler
Baby
Make me wanna holler
My child will one day ask me
What will i be？
As a child i promised myself
I'd never be
Like my mother or my father
I would ask myself,
'did he feel so much pain
That it would make him wanna hurt another？'
But there was no excuse
There was no excuse to make up for the pain
That i knew my mother felt
But somewhere my destiny came
That i too became a slave, to my heart
Wanting love so badly
That i'd do anything
No matter the shame
Make me wanna holler
I...
Love me
Make me wanna holler
Tell me
Make me wanna holler
Mmm, so sorry
Make me wanna holler
So sorry
Why？
I never got the nerve
To ask my father 'why？'
But my mother
She would say,
She stayed for my brother and myself
But i would have sold my soul
Just to share in one day
Of my mother's desired happiness
When night fell
Sometimes when night fell
I'd close my eyes
And i'd hide
Close your eyes
When they would yell and scream
When my father would paint her
With a dark face
Of being belittled, disrespected
And set aside
His liquor, the salve
For the unseen wounds
I learned so much from him
What did i learn？
How to hurt all of those
Who try to get too close
Make me wanna holler
Make me wanna holler
Sometimes i get so...
Make me wanna holler
I just don't understand
Why？
Make me wanna holler
Tell me why
Mmm, so sorry
So sorry for the pain
Make me wanna holler
So sorry
I'm so sorry
Just play for me
Play for me
She would close her eyes and cry
He would close his heart and hide
She would close her eyes and cry
After all this time
Nothing's changed
Make me wanna holler
Make me want to holler
Yes i do
Make me wanna holler
Sell my soul just to see ya happy
So sorry for the pain
Make me wanna holler
So sorry, so sorry, so sorry, yeah
Make me wanna holler
So sorry for the pain
I always thought my mother
Deserved so much more
But i never knew how to fix that
I drown myself in guilt
I just don't know what to do
No
Mama i love you.
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